Unread postby Ffordesoon » Thu Aug 16, 2012 2:13 am
@Benzie:
You wanna know what? Fair enough. I apologize unreservedly. In particular, I retract the line about bullying, and will cross it out of the post. Upon further reflection, I don't think your post was particularly out of line. I don't know if this makes any sense, but I sometimes think too far ahead. Like, I wasn't reacting to a post that was already posted, but rather one that felt like it was about to be posted, but didn't end up actually, you know, being posted.
I guess what bothered me - and it really shouldn't have, if I'm honest, but I'm sort of sensitive to these things in particular - was the thing on the last page where you said "But we're not talking about a person, we're talking about TSO." I think I know how you meant it, but because of the way I am and the things that make me feel bad, my immediate reaction was to think that you were, you know, casually denying her personhood. Which is one of my few triggers, because of, well, a whole hell of a lot of stuff. But I bit my tongue, because I knew you were probably just kidding around.
And then, when she said "You don't believe me?", I started to feel bad for her, because I... well, let's just say I've been in her shoes before. And then the "pix or it didn't happen" picture had a screaming man on it, and even though I agreed with what you said and knew intellectually you were probably just joking, something about the tone of that image really bothered me. And the jab at her state - you were kidding, I know - didn't help. Not to mention that it read a little bit like you were taking a shot at her parents' financial situation, which I think we can both agree would be out of line. And then when she said "Don't talk about my parents," I just flashed in my head to being on the playground and being the subject of a game of keep-away that I could never win because I was the slow kid, and that triggered a latent protective instinct in me, and I wrote what I wrote.
I'm not saying any of this to engender sympathy. I just want you to understand where I was coming from and why I reacted the way I did. I don't have many triggers, but I do have them, and you happened to pull a couple by accident. I'm sorry I lectured you. Will you please forgive me?
I live in the weeds.